hey its my birthday

By Ashes -

 i really dont what to start with a cliche 'it hasnt been a long time since i wrote my blog', but here i am doing this over and over again. truthfully the first sentence that popped in my mind is, i hate that i cant sleep after consuming too much caffeine today. and which brings us to the second sentence, in this case, the third? -i read on thread that if you felt sleepy after drinking coffee, you might have adhd. okay before you judge me or pointing it out where is the relevance? i want to say, that i honestly (actually, i dont even need to write the word honestly here) felt sleepy after drinking/ consuming caffeine. okay let me elaborate; right after drinking coffee, i will feel so drowsy. i will yawn and feel tired all of a sudden. this is where i should grab a pillow and immediately go to sleep or take a nap. this is what i called 'a window' must be grabbed quickly and i should sleep immediately . however, being a career woman myself (pfft), i rarely got the chance. obviously because i commonly drink coffee at work. so when this window passed, i cant and wont be able to sleep. which is happening now. its 1.44 a.m. im drinking milo, because i cant risk drinking coffee at night, since tomorrow i'll be observed for a morning lesson. ugh

but, hey on the bright side. im writing my blog again.

this is seriously a bad time to not be able to fall asleep.

now onto the serious part.... my life.who would guess that im updating the blog that i created 17 years ago on my 32nd birthday. life's weird. for your information, i used a calculator just now to count that. my brain is really not good with numbers late at night. is it good with words? idk youre the judge of that. whatever idc. i would tell you everything thats happening in my life right now if i dont care about privacy, but unfortunately i do. so the only information you're getting tonight is, one, i cant sleep, two, its my birthday and three, i shouldnt let people telling me how to live my life now that im a year older. good night and may i have a good sleep tonight. and to you hf in whatever you do

p.s. im cosidering to write this neatly with good punctuations and maybe proof reading it, but honestly i found beauty in things that are not perfect :) btw since im considerate below is the version where ChatGPT proofread it for me. xoxo

I really don’t want to start with the cliché “it hasn’t been a long time since I wrote my blog,” but here I am doing this over and over again. Truthfully, the first sentence that popped into my mind is: I hate that I can’t sleep after consuming too much caffeine today.

Which brings us to the second sentence—or in this case, the third? I read on Threads that if you feel sleepy after drinking coffee, you might have ADHD. Okay, before you judge me or point out where the relevance is, I want to say that I honestly (actually, I don’t even need to use the word “honestly” here) feel sleepy after consuming caffeine. Let me elaborate: right after drinking coffee, I get very drowsy. I yawn and suddenly feel tired all over. That’s when I should grab a pillow and immediately go to sleep or take a nap. This is what I call “a window”—it must be seized quickly, and I should sleep immediately.

However, being a career woman myself (pfft), I rarely get the chance. Obviously, this is because I usually drink coffee at work. So when this window passes, I can’t and won’t be able to sleep—which is exactly what is happening now. It’s 1:44 a.m. I’m drinking Milo because I can’t risk drinking coffee at night, since tomorrow I’ll be observed during a morning lesson. Ugh.

But hey, on the bright side, I’m writing my blog again.

This is seriously a bad time to not be able to fall asleep.

Now onto the serious part… my life. Who would’ve guessed that I’m updating a blog I created 17 years ago on my 32nd birthday? Life is weird. For your information, I used a calculator just now to figure that out—my brain is really not good with numbers late at night. Is it good with words? I don’t know. You’re the judge of that. Whatever, I don’t care.

I would tell you everything that’s happening in my life right now if I didn’t care about privacy, but unfortunately, I do. So the only information you’re getting tonight is: one, I can’t sleep; two, it’s my birthday; and three, I shouldn’t let people tell me how to live my life now that I’m a year older.

Good night, and may I have a good sleep tonight. And to you—hf in whatever you do. 


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